Anonymous asked: You know what? All of what you're saying is like a huge 'fuck you' to your followers. We are trying to help you because we love you and care about you. If we didn't, we wouldn't be taking time out of our day to message you about all this fuckery you're posting. I was really sympathetic at first, but now I'm mad. Suicide is pussying out on life. I bet you you have a pretty good life. Your parents make money and care about you? yes. Do you live on the street? NO! What you're doing is selfish.
No I’m not. I love my followers. I just wish you guys would understand where I’m coming from and I know a lot of you do.. why can’t you be happy for me? You know nothing about my life and my family. And you think suicide is selfish?! Isn’t it selfish making somebody stay in a hell they obviously don’t want to be stuck in, suffering for years and years every fuckin day and every second of the day? How they keep me here if they don’t care, when all I can think about is how much I hate myself in every way, how I’m a fuck up, I’m useless, unimportant, unwanted, unneeded, fat, ugly, crazy, fucked up, etc etc. All I’m saying is that you don’t have to live with my thoughts going through your head non stop, constantly. You don’t have to deal with the pain I go through. The immediate sadness when I realized that I woke up and I’m still alive. I dream of death. If you don’t like how I express my feelings, this is my tumblr. This is the one place I can share how I feel. And if you don’t like it, don’t go on my blog. There’s an unfollow button for a reason.
Guys, stop pretending to care. Stop trying to make me stay because nothing you say will work. I want to die. My mind is set. It’s been set for quite some time now. Nothing you say will ever change that. I know you don’t care, so don’t act like you do. Be honest. You don’t care. You can stop pretending you do now. Give up. I gave up on myself, so should you.
Anonymous asked: you can't tell me your not worried you'll regret it though it could be 10x worse where ever people go when they die no one knows and this is your life that you only get one shot at, you have to live it to your fullest you need to try and be happy because i know you want to die and i know its hurting you to stay here and feel the way you feel believe me i understand that but what if its not all worth it in the end god saved you from all those attempts, you survive for a reason you have a purpose
and if there is no after life? ill die. be gone. like i was never here. disappear. gone forever.
Anonymous asked: julie please don't do this, people are just trying to protect you no one wants to hurt you, i just want you to stay here and wait it out see if you can be happy you never know what tomorrow brings please wait it out just please I'm begging you not to do this tonight or tomorrow night just give it time please.
Protect me from what? You guys don’t understand that being here is hurting me, nobody’s protected me all this time but now they’re trying to stop me from escaping?! They’re hurting me. They’re trying to make me stay, to suffer, to be dead but living. Maybe I won’t do it tonight or tomorrow night. Prom night would be easier to explain, it would look more like an accident.
to my last anon. I spelt know wrong… derp moment . so yeah correction: know**** not no :P
Anonymous asked: Yes, you are. You are so strong and you have so much more to live for. You're gonna do some amazing shit with your life, but you have to stick around to see it happen. Julie, you cant start the next chapter of your life if you keep rereading the last one. Forgive yourself. forgive those who hurt you. I know its hard but trust me, Hun, its worth it 100000000x over.
What do I have to live for? You must not no me. I fucked up my life. I have no future what so ever. Life sucks no matter how “happy” you think you are. No matter where I go I’ll always feel this way. Why continue the suffering?
Anonymous asked: you have to think though no one knows about life after death and no one knows the penalties for killing yourself hell or heaven could be just as horrible as living here we have to try and get by for our family and for our friends because at the end of the day no matter how much we just want to be gone, we have to think of others the people that love us and the people that we would be killing if we killed ourselves stay strong julie please stay strong, i love you. and you are not a waste of space
Nobody loves me… and I could care less about what’s after death. If I’m not here, I’m okay. Do the people who “care” about me ever think of how much they’re killing me by making me stay here? Why can’t someone just be fuckin happy that I might actually end the pain. Many know I’ve attempted a few times. But attempting isn’t enough. I need to succeed. I wouldn’t have tried to kill myself before if I didn’t really want to die. It’s my life. Who the hell is anybody to tell me what I should and shouldn’t do. They’re not the ones who are stuck here suffering so why should they have a say if I live or die? If they cared about me and wanted me to be happy they’d try to understand and accept the fact that this is what I really want. That dying is my only wish. And they would be ok with it because in the end, if they aren’t, they’re hurting me. If they cared they would want to help. The only thing I consider help, is suicide/death. And suicide it shall be.
